I cyberstalked Sheer Photography for months before I booked them. Why did I book? Because this isn’t the kind of experience where you show up, have your photos taken awkwardly and then leave to wait for an email with your semi-okay photos.
Nope. This was so very much more.
I’ve struggled with my body for years. I was 140 pounds my freshman year of high school and *LOL* I thought I was fat. By my freshman year of college I had dropped 25 pounds because of a toxic relationship i was in with a man who told me repeatedly that he “Liked girls with a nice ass” and told me my boobs were “too big”. I endured that kind of toxicity for over two years and it took a major toll on my body and my soul.
I was at my skinniest and still felt ugly and disgusting. Then i found a man who loved me for me and helped me build myself back up piece by piece for another two years - but then I gained a buuuuuunch of weight. My mom calls it “happy fat” (I call it wine and cheese dip, damn you MOSCATO)... but even still, the body image issue returned with vengeance. I could feel my belly growing and getting flabbier and flabbier, my face puffing out and I hated myself again.
So I found Sheer. At first, I couldn’t justify spending money on myself. I couldn’t convince myself I was one of the girls in their photos, so I just joined the VIP group. I watched all these women of all shapes and sizes getting their photos done and talking about how AMAZING they felt. Still, I couldn’t do it. Then the Mother’s Day sale came around and I suck “OKAY KRISTEN LETS DO THIS.” I set my session six months out (in october) swearing to myself that I’d lose the weight. Spoiler alert: I did not. I gymed hard the month before my session but only lost a tiny bit of the weight I wanted gone.
My session was nothing short of awesome. Jamming to rap tunes got me in the spirit, jumping around like a T-Rex, laughing and having a good time COMPLETELY NUDE in front of two human beings I’d only met once before my session. I was SO comfortable with them that I went totally naked and didn’t care. And my photos? I LOOK SOOOO AMAZING. I finally saw the body that my boyfriend does when he sees me. Chubby and all, it didn’t matter, because I was reeling convince in my curves.
Here’s the gist of it ladies and gents: this was a life changing session for me. I am no longer making myself feel like garbage for being a little soft in the middle. I’m going back again to do a session with my boyfriend. It’s more than “Oh yeah, you look sexy” it’s “You are a beautiful badass bitch who deserves to love and be loved by yourself and everyone else.”
Jen and Brian are MAJOR GOALS when it comes to being a boudoir photographer. This has changed everything in my life about my self confidence and my desire to change my body. You will not regret your decision to go with these two. Not only are they HELLA awesome as people, they’re an excellent photo team and you’ll love being part of their community of self love and beauty. Ya won’t regret it. Xoxo.