Unpopular Opinion: You're Allowed to Want More

WEEK 30 - The Feminine Rebrand

By Jennifer Dirksen · Sheer Photography, Youngstown OH · Est. read time: 5 min

You can love your life and still crave something bigger. Those two things are not in conflict… no matter what anyone has taught you to believe.

Here's something nobody says out loud enough: Wanting more doesn't make you ungrateful.

It doesn't make you a bad wife, a bad mom, a selfish person, or someone who doesn't appreciate what she has. It makes you a woman with a pulse. A woman who is paying attention to herself (maybe for the first time in a long time) and being honest about what she actually feels.

And that honesty? That's not something to be ashamed of. That's something to follow.

We have been so thoroughly trained to perform gratitude that we've confused it with contentment. We've been told that wanting more means we don't appreciate what we have. That if we loved our husbands enough, our kids enough, our lives enough… we wouldn't need anything else.

That's not gratitude. That's erasure. And it has kept a lot of women very, very small.

"You can love your life completely and still crave more from it. Those two things were never supposed to be in conflict."

The lie we tell ourselves every single day.

It sounds like this: I should be happy with what I have. I have enough. Other people have it so much worse. I shouldn't complain.

And underneath all of that (quiet, patient, increasingly hard to ignore) she's starving.

Not for things. For experience. For aliveness. For the feeling of being more than a function in her own life. For romance that actually feels like romance. For adventure that isn't just a family vacation she planned and managed and photographed and made memories out of for everyone else. For intimacy that goes deeper than the surface. For confidence that doesn't have to be earned or justified or earned again every single morning.

She wants more passion. More presence. More of her own life, lived on her own terms.

And she talks herself out of it every single time. Because wanting it feels dangerous. Wanting it feels like ingratitude. Wanting it feels like she's saying what she has isn't enough… when really all she's saying is: I am more than what I've allowed myself to be.

Wanting more doesn't cancel what you already love.

Let me be really clear about something because I think this is where women get tangled up the most:

Wanting more adventure doesn't mean you hate your life. Wanting more romance doesn't mean you don't love your husband. Wanting more confidence doesn't mean you think you're worthless right now. Wanting more intimacy doesn't mean something is broken. Wanting more passion doesn't mean you're dissatisfied with everything.

It means you're alive. It means you're honest. It means there is a version of your life that feels even more like yours (more expressed, more electric, more real) and some part of you knows it and won't stop knowing it no matter how many times you tell yourself to be grateful and move on.

You can love your husband and want more romance. You can love your kids and want more time that belongs only to you. You can love your home and want more adventure inside your own life. You can be deeply grateful for everything you have and still feel the pull toward something more.

That pull isn't betrayal. That pull is direction.

"Wanting more isn't ingratitude. It's information. Your desires are telling you something about who you are and what you need and they deserve to be heard!"

Playing small helps nobody.

Here's the part I really need you to hear… especially if you've been shrinking yourself for years in the name of keeping everyone comfortable:

Playing small doesn't protect the people you love. It doesn't make you a better mom. It doesn't make you a better partner. It doesn't make your home more peaceful or your relationships more stable.

What it does is model something for your daughters, your sons, the people watching you… that a woman's desires are optional. That wanting things for yourself is selfish. That the right way to be a woman is to make yourself as small and as accommodating as possible and call it love.

That's not what you want to teach them. And deep down you know it.

The most powerful thing you can do for the people you love is to want things for yourself and pursue them. To show them what a woman looks like when she's fully expressed, fully alive, fully inhabiting her own story. To stop shrinking and start showing up… for yourself first, and then for everyone else from a place of genuine fullness instead of quiet depletion.

You cannot pour from empty. But more than that, you shouldn't have to!

The question that changes everything.

I want you to sit with this one. Really sit with it… not skim past it on your way to the next section.

If nobody was judging you... what would you honestly want?

Not what you think you should want. Not what's reasonable or appropriate or what other people would approve of. What do you actually, genuinely, in the quiet part of yourself that doesn't perform for anyone… want?

Write it down. All of it. Even the things that feel too big or too selfish or too much.

Especially those.

What a boudoir session has to do with wanting more.

Everything. Literally everything.

Because a session at Sheer is one of the most direct acts of wanting more I know. It's choosing (out loud, with your credit card and your calendar) to prioritize your own experience. Your own feelings. Your own desire to feel something for yourself instead of always for someone else.

The women who book sessions aren't only doing it for their husbands. They're not doing it because someone told them to or because they finally hit a goal. They're doing it because something in them said I want to feel this. I want to feel desired. I want to feel seen. I want to feel like a whole woman… not just a role, not just a function, not just someone who keeps everything running.

They wanted more. And they chose it.

And when they walk into my home studio and we spend a few hours together (doing hair and makeup, moving through looks, laughing, talking, being fully present) something opens up. Not because I did something magical. Because they gave themselves permission to want something and then actually had it.

That experience doesn't stay in the studio. It follows you home. It changes how you carry yourself. It changes what you're willing to ask for. It changes what you're willing to settle for.

Wanting more is how it starts. Choosing it is what makes it real.

Your permission list.

I want you to actually do this. Not think about doing it. Actually do it.

Get a piece of paper (or your notes app, or the back of a receipt, I don't care) and write:

I give myself permission to...

And then finish it. As many times as you need to. Without editing. Without deciding if it's reasonable. Without asking if you've earned it.

Some of my favorites from women I've worked with:

I give myself permission to want more romance. I give myself permission to take up space. I give myself permission to be seen. I give myself permission to feel beautiful right now, in this body. I give myself permission to want something just for me. I give myself permission to book the session.

That last one is yours if you want it 🖤

The investment is smaller than another year of waiting.

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How to Build Your Signature Sexy Energy.

WEEK 29 - The Feminine Rebrand

By Jennifer Dirksen · Sheer Photography, Youngstown OH · Est. read time: 5 min

Sexy isn't an outfit. It's an atmosphere. And the most unforgettable women in any room usually aren't the prettiest… they're the most present.

I want to tell you something about the women I remember.

Not the women who were objectively the most beautiful in the room. Not the ones with the best outfits or the most perfect bodies or the clearest skin. The women I remember (the ones who made me turn my head, the ones whose energy I can still feel when I think about them) were the ones who had something I could feel before I could explain it.

A presence. An atmosphere. Something that said I know exactly who I am without ever saying a word.

That's signature sexy energy. And it has almost nothing to do with how you look.

Sexy isn't something you put on. It's something you inhabit. The most unforgettable women aren't the prettiest ones in the room… they're the most present.

Energy speaks before you do.

Here's what people actually notice first… before your outfit, before your face, before anything you say:

Your posture… whether you walk into a room like you belong there or like you're hoping nobody notices you came in. Your eye contact… whether you hold it or immediately look away. Your pace… whether you move through the world like someone who has somewhere to be or someone who's waiting for permission to exist in the space. Your presence… whether you're actually there or somewhere else entirely, managing your anxiety and monitoring how you're being received.

These things register before beauty does. Every single time.

And here's the good news: every single one of them is a choice. Not a fixed trait. Not something you either have or don't. A daily, repeatable, completely learnable choice about how you show up in your own life.

The woman with signature sexy energy isn't performing confidence. She's just stopped apologizing for being in the room.

Find your three words.

This is one of my favorite exercises and I want you to actually do it… not just read past it!

Think about the version of you that feels the most you. Not the most appropriate version, not the most likable version, not the version you perform for the people who make you feel like you need to be smaller. The version that exists when you're completely comfortable, completely unmonitored, completely yourself.

Now give her three words.

Maybe she's magnetic, warm, dangerous. Maybe she's elegant, soft, untouchable. Maybe she's playful, bold, electric. Maybe she's mysterious, grounded, sensual. There's no right answer… only the words that make something in you go yes, that's her!

Those three words are your personal brand. Your signature energy. The filter you run every decision through… what you wear, how you carry yourself, how you speak, what you let into your life and what you quietly stop tolerating.

When you know your three words, getting dressed stops being about what's acceptable and starts being about what's aligned. When you know your three words, you stop performing for rooms that don't deserve it. When you know your three words, you stop asking do I look okay and start asking does this feel like me?

That shift is everything.

When you know your three words, you stop asking 'do I look okay' and start asking 'does this feel like me?' That's the whole shift.

Romanticize your everyday.

Signature sexy energy isn't reserved for special occasions. It's not something you turn on for date night and put away for Tuesday morning. It's a way of moving through your entire life, including the mundane parts.

Your morning coffee becomes a ritual instead of a refueling stop. You put on the music that makes you feel like yourself while you're getting ready instead of scrolling your phone half-awake. You do your skincare slowly, intentionally, like someone who considers herself worth the extra two minutes. You walk into Target like you have somewhere to be. You choose the candle, the perfume, the playlist… not because anyone will notice, but because you will notice.

This is romanticizing your everyday. And it sounds small but it is genuinely transformative… because it trains you to treat your own life like it's worth showing up for. Like the ordinary moments matter. Like you matter, even when nobody's watching.

Especially when nobody's watching.

Your signature details.

The most memorable women aren't memorable because of everything about them. They're memorable because of the specific things… the details that are so consistently, distinctly them that you'd recognize them anywhere.

A signature scent. The way she does her hair. A particular piece of jewelry she always wears. The way she makes eye contact when she laughs. Her voice. Her smile. A color that she's claimed so completely it practically belongs to her.

These aren't accidents. They're choices (usually small ones, made consistently over time) that add up to something unmistakable.

What are yours? If you don't know yet, that's your assignment. Not to invent them, but to notice them. The things you already do or wear or reach for that feel the most like you. The details that make you feel like yourself before you've even left the house.

Lean into those. Hard. Build your signature around the things that already feel like home.

What this looks like in a session.

Half of what I do at Sheer has nothing to do with the camera.

It's the conversation before we start, where I'm listening for who she actually is underneath all the roles she plays. It's the way we build her looks… not around what's flattering in a generic sense, but around what feels most her. It's watching her find her posture, her eye contact, her pace, in real time, in front of the lens and seeing the moment she stops performing and starts inhabiting herself.

That's when the photos become something else entirely.

Because a boudoir session isn't just about capturing how you look. It's about capturing your energy (your specific, signature, completely-yours energy) and giving you photographic evidence of what it looks like when you're fully in it.

The women who walk out of their reveals completely undone? It's not because the photos are beautiful. It's because they finally see their own atmosphere. Their own presence. The thing that makes them unforgettable.

And they realize it was there the whole time.

Your challenge this week.

Pick one signature element and commit to it for the next seven days.

A scent you wear every day. A piece of jewelry you don't take off. A posture you practice every time you walk into a room. Three words you write down and actually think about.

Just one. Consistently. For a week.

And notice what happens to how you feel in your own skin.

That's how signature energy is built. Not all at once. One deliberate, repeatable, completely-yours choice at a time. 🖤

The investment is smaller than another year of waiting.

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The Feminine Rebrand: Your Bold New Era Starts Now

WEEK 28 - The Feminine Rebrand

By Jennifer Dirksen · Sheer Photography, Youngstown OH · Est. read time: 5 min

The kids are almost back in school. The lists are made. Everyone's taken care of. So why does it feel like you forgot someone?

It's early August and I know exactly where you are right now.

You're in Target. Or Walmart. Or clicking through Amazon with three browser tabs open and a lukewarm cup of coffee that you made three hours ago and forgot about. You've got the list. Folders, highlighters, the specific brand of pencils that apparently matters enormously to a nine year old. New sneakers. Fall clothes in the next size up. Everything everybody needs for the new school year.

And somewhere in the middle of all of that… you put yourself back on the shelf. Again.

Not dramatically. You didn't make a decision about it. It just happened the way it always happens: everyone else's needs were loud and immediate… and yours were easy to postpone. So you postponed them. And called it being a good mom. And moved on to the next tab.

But here's what I want you to notice: something is shifting. The summer is ending. The calendar is about to change. The kids are going back and the house is going to get quiet and there is going to be a moment (maybe the first morning drop-off, maybe the first afternoon you have to yourself in three months) where you look up and think:

Okay… what do I actually want?!?!

That question is the beginning of everything.

The new school year isn't just a fresh start for your kids. It's an opening for yourself. A crack in the routine where something new can get in… if you let it.

The back to school rebrand nobody talks about.

Every September there's a collective ritual of fresh starts. New backpacks. New routines. New intentions. The kids get new everything… and there's something genuinely beautiful about that, about the optimism of a blank notebook and a sharpened pencil and the possibility of a whole new year.

But when was the last time YOU got a rebrand?

Not a new planner. Not a productivity system. Not a resolution you made in January that got quietly abandoned by February. A real one. A you rebrand. A decision that this season (this turn of the calendar) is going to feel different because you're going to show up in it differently.

Not for your kids. Not for your partner. Not because you finally hit a goal or earned it somehow.

Just because you decided to.

That's what I'm calling the Feminine Rebrand. And it doesn't require a new wardrobe or a complete life overhaul or waiting until everything is perfectly in place. It just requires one thing: deciding that you are included in this fresh start. That your energy, your identity, your sense of yourself as a woman (not just a mom, not just a caretaker, not just the person who keeps everything running) gets to be part of this new era too.

What you've been running on all summer.

Let's be honest about what the last few months have actually looked like. Summer sounds dreamy from a distance… slow mornings, sunshine, kids home and happy. And there were probably beautiful moments in there. Real ones.

But there was also the relentlessness of it. The constant presence of other people's needs. The complete dissolution of any structure that gave you breathing room. The snacks and the schedules and the activities and the noise and the being needed by everyone, constantly, with very little space left over for yourself.

You've been running on fumes and calling it fine.

And now the year is turning and the kids are going back and you have a choice: slide back into the routine exactly as it was before, or use this moment (this natural reset point) to do something different.

Something that includes you!

You've spent all summer pouring into everyone else. The new school year isn't just a schedule change. It's your opening to finally pour something back into yourself.

What a feminine rebrand actually looks like.

It doesn't have to be big. It just has to be intentional.

It's deciding that this season you're going to show up differently… in how you dress, how you carry yourself, how you talk about yourself, how much space you give yourself to actually want things and pursue them without immediately feeling guilty about it.

It's asking yourself: who do I want to be in this next chapter? Not what do I need to accomplish or fix or improve. Who do I want to be? What does she feel like? How does she move through a room? What does she wear? How does she spend the pockets of time that are finally, finally hers again?

And then (and this is the part most women skip) actually freaking doing something about it! Not planning to. Not adding it to a list. Doing it.

Five ways to start your feminine rebrand this month.

→ Spend some of the back to school budget on yourself… even something small, just for you, just because

→ Reclaim one morning or afternoon per week that is entirely yours… no tasks, no errands, no productivity

→ Update one thing about how you show up (your hair, your style, your energy) something that signals to yourself that this season is different

→ Write down who you want to be in this next chapter… not what you want to do, who you want to be

→ Do one thing this month that is purely, unapologetically for the woman underneath all the roles

Where boudoir fits into all of this.

A session at Sheer is one of the most powerful ways I know to mark a new chapter. Not because it changes who you are… but because it shows you who you already are, clearly, undeniably, in a way that's really hard to unsee.

Women book sessions at the beginning of new eras all the time. Birthdays. Divorces. Weight loss. Weight gain. Kids going back to school. That quiet September morning when the house is finally still and something in them says: it's my turn now.

That's the Feminine Rebrand in its most literal form. A few hours that are entirely yours. Hair, makeup, a space where nothing is being asked of you except to show up as yourself. And photos that follow you into the new era as evidence (actual, undeniable evidence) of the woman who decided to include herself in her own fresh start.

Your bold new era starts now. Not when the timing is perfect. Not when the budget is bigger. Not when you've earned it enough.

Now. 🖤

The investment is smaller than another year of waiting.

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The Body You Have Right Now Deserves to Be Seen

WEEK 27

By Jennifer Dirksen · Sheer Photography, Youngstown OH · Est. read time: 5 min

Not the one you're working toward. Not the one you had five years ago. This one. Today. As she is.

I want to ask you something and I want you to actually sit with it for a second before you move on.

How long have you been waiting to love your body?

Not tolerate it. Not manage it. Not negotiate with it. Actually love it… the way it is right now, today, without a single condition attached.

For most women the answer is some version of: a really long time. Maybe since the first time someone made a comment that landed wrong. Maybe since the first diet. Maybe since the body started changing in ways that felt like betrayal instead of biology.

And somewhere along the way the waiting became the plan. I'll love my body when I lose the weight. When the skin clears. When it looks more like it used to. When it looks more like hers. When it finally becomes the version I've been working toward.

But here's what that plan actually costs you: every single day between now and someday. And someday has a way of never arriving.

The body you're waiting to have isn't more deserving of love than the one you're living in right now. She's doing everything. She deserves everything.

The "after" body myth.

We've been sold a story that there's a before and an after. That the after body is the real one… the worthy one, the one that gets to be photographed and celebrated and finally loved. And the before body is just the waiting room. Something to get through on the way to something better.

I photograph women every single week. Women of every size, shape, age, and relationship with their own reflection. And I want to tell you something I know with absolute certainty after over a decade of this work:

There is no after body that is more beautiful than a woman who has decided that she is worth seeing as she is now!

The most stunning images I have ever made were not of the women who had the "perfect" bodies by whatever standard we're currently being sold. They were of the women who walked in and decided to stop waiting. Who gave themselves permission (maybe for the first time) to be fully present in the body they actually have.

That decision photographs like nothing else I've ever seen.

What your body is actually doing while you're criticizing it.

Here's the thing about the body you've been at war with: it has been showing up for you every single day without a single day off. Through the stress and the sleepless nights and the hard seasons and the babies and the grief and the years of being last on your own list.

It carried you through things you weren't sure you could survive. It healed. It adapted. It kept going when you wanted to stop. It held your children. It got you here.

And while it was doing all of that… you were criticizing everything wrong with it.

I'm not saying that to make you feel guilty. I'm saying it because I think most women genuinely don't realize how one-sided that relationship has been. How much your body has given you while you've been focused entirely on what it hasn't.

What would it feel like to call a truce? Not full peace necessarily, just a truce. Just enough to let yourself be seen.

Your body didn't fail you. It carried you here. Maybe it's time to start treating it like it did.

What actually happens in a session.

I want to be really honest about this because I think there's a fantasy version of boudoir that floats around online (all perfect lighting and perfect bodies and perfect everything) and it makes women think the session is for someone else. Someone who already has it figured out. Someone who already feels good.

That is not who comes to Sheer!

The women who come to Sheer come with real bodies and real histories and real complicated relationships with their own reflections. They come with the stomach they've been hiding and the arms they always cover and the skin that doesn't look the way it used to. They come nervous and uncertain and sometimes already apologizing for themselves before they've even walked through the door.

And then something happens.

We do hair and makeup together… and for most women that alone is the first time in months or years someone has focused entirely on making them feel beautiful. We go through looks that feel like different, powerful versions of themselves. We move through the session at their pace, in their comfort zone, and then just a little outside of it.

And when they see the first image on the back of the camera (the stomach they've been hiding, the arms they always cover, the body they've been WAITING to love) something shifts. Not because I did something magical. Because they finally looked. Really looked. Without the running commentary. Without the f*cking self criticism! And what they see is a woman who was worth seeing the whole time.

Five ways to start being kinder to the body you're in right now.

→ Stop apologizing for your body in conversation… to others and especially to yourself

→ Wear the thing that fits the body you have today, not the body you're working toward

→ Find one thing your body did this week that had nothing to do with how it looks

→ Take a photo of yourself… not to post, just to look at without immediately finding fault

→ Ask yourself honestly: would I speak to anyone else the way I speak to myself about my body?

The body you have right now is not a consolation prize. She is not the waiting room. She is the whole thing and she has been waiting for you to see that for a very long time.

Let this be the week you start. 🖤

The body you're waiting to have isn't more deserving of this than the one you're in right now. The investment is smaller than another year of waiting.

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Just Do the Thing: A Real Boudoir Client Story

WEEK 26 · Client Story

By Jennifer Dirksen · Sheer Photography, Youngstown OH · Est. read time: 6 min

A real client. Her real words. And the moment she fell back in love with herself all over again.

I could write all day about what a boudoir session does for a woman. I've done it for 25 weeks in a row. But sometimes the most powerful thing I can do is get out of the way and let one of my Sheer ICONS say it herself!

This one came in recently from a client who had been through it… really been through it. A year of being harder on herself than she'd ever been. A year of losing herself in the daily grind of caring for everyone around her. A year of her own mind being her worst enemy.

And then she did the thing.

I'm sharing her words here (with her permission and so much gratitude) because I know she's not alone. Because I know some of you reading this have been carrying the exact same weight. And because sometimes what you need isn't another person telling you how you'll feel after. Sometimes you need to hear it from someone who was sitting exactly where you are.

"I finally decided to do another shoot after I lost myself. I spend day in and day out caring for others and am known to lose myself in the process. I spent the last year being very critically hard on myself. I was constantly putting myself down and eventually decided to put myself first for once.

My mind kept telling me that I was not skinny enough, that my skin would never be clear enough, yada yada yada. My own mind was my worst enemy."

— Victoria

Read that again. My own mind was my worst enemy.

How many of you just felt that in your chest? Because that's not a unique experience… that's the experience of almost every woman who has ever considered doing something like this and talked herself out of it. The body isn't ready. The skin isn't clear enough. The timing isn't right. The list of reasons to wait is always longer than the one reason to go.

But she went anyway. She booked before she felt ready. And something started to shift.

She didn't wait until she felt worthy. She decided to act like she was and the feeling followed.

What happens when life hits harder than normal.

Here's the part of her story that I want to make sure doesn't get glossed over. Because it would be easy to read this as a feel good story about a woman who had a great session and felt better. But what she actually went through leading up to it was real and heavy and hard.

"Leading up to my session, life had definitely been hitting harder than normal. I had gained what weight I had managed to lose and then some. I was harder on myself than I had ever been in the past. It was the biggest and largest struggle I had yet faced in my adulthood.

It took some time but I remembered that I am the daughter, granddaughter, niece, and sister to some of the most amazing and strong women. I took the time and started to find myself yet again. Slowly but surely, I began to come out of my shell."

— Victoria

She didn't arrive at her session healed. She arrived in the middle of the process. Still finding herself. Still coming out of the shell. Still not having a single outfit picked out… which, for a self described control person, took a specific kind of courage.

She trusted me anyway. She told me I had complete control. And when she expressed her concerns (her stomach, the dreaded double chin) my response was exactly what it always is: I gotchu.

Because I do. Every single time. That's the whole job.

What session day actually felt like.

"Session day arrived and I was nervous. Nervous I was going to be late. Nervous I was going to fail myself in a way. But at the same time, I was so excited. I was excited to see myself in a different light, through someone else's eyes. I was excited to find my spark again that had been buried so deep.

As soon as I saw the first photos Jen took, I fell back in love with myself all over again. Every 'flaw and imperfection' I thought I saw, I loved. I saw what and who my husband saw. The woman I saw in that camera was ME. I am that strong, confident woman. I am the beauty in the image. I am worthy of my own love."

— Victoria

I am worthy of my own love!!!! Yes queen!

I have been doing this for over a decade and that sentence will live rent free in my head FOREVER. Because that's it. That's the whole thing. Not the photos (although the photos are the reminder.) Not the hair and makeup (although walking out feeling amazing is its own kind of magic.) It's that moment. The moment a woman looks at herself and stops seeing everything she's been criticizing and starts seeing everything she actually is!

That moment is real. It happens in my home studio regularly. And it is available to you.

Her message to you.

I want to end with her words because they're better than anything I could write:

"To anyone that has been a follower of Sheer Photography and Jen, do yourself the favor and book that shoot. Don't let yourself get lost in the shuffle of everyday life. Don't let your spark get buried. You will forever look at the photos and remember how you felt that day. You are worth every bit of time and love you put into others. Do not forget that you are worth your own love too."

— Victoria

She said it. I'm just making sure you heard it.

You are worth your own love too.

Just do the thing 🖤

The right version of you doesn't show up before the decision. She shows up because of it.

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The Women Who Book the Session Are Different. Here's How.

WEEK 25 · IDENTITY & BOLDNESS

By Jennifer Dirksen · Sheer Photography, Youngstown OH · Est. read time: 5 min

It's not about the photos. It's not about the lingerie. It's about the decision and what that decision says about who you're choosing to become.

I want to tell you something I've noticed after years of doing this work.

The women who book a boudoir session aren't a certain body type. They're not a certain age. They don't have a certain relationship status or a certain level of confidence already in place. They don't have their lives perfectly figured out or their self-worth completely sorted or their relationship with their body fully healed.

What they have is a decision.

A moment (sometimes quiet, sometimes electric, sometimes just tired) where something in them says: I'm f*cking done waiting! Done waiting for the right body. Done waiting for the right moment. Done waiting to feel worthy of taking up space in my own story. Done treating myself like an afterthought in my own life.

That decision right there changes things for us. Not just the session. Everything.

The women who book aren't more confident than the ones who don't. They're just done waiting for confidence to arrive before they act!

There is no right time. There is only the decision.

Here's what I hear constantly from women who are considering a session: I'll do it when I lose the weight. I'll do it when things settle down. I'll do it when I feel better about myself. I'll do it when I'm ready.

I say this with so much love: that moment is never coming. Not because you won't lose the weight or feel better or get ready, but because "when I'm ready" isn't a date on a calendar. It's a feeling you're waiting for that only comes from doing the thing you're waiting to feel before you do it.

The women who have come in for a boudoir session with me weren't ready either. They were nervous. They had the same list of reasons to wait. They just decided that the list wasn't actually the point (that they were tired of letting it be the point) and they booked anyway.

And something shifted the moment they did. Before the session. Before the photos. In the decision itself.

The decision is the identity shift.

This is the part most people don't talk about because it sounds too simple and also too big at the same time.

When you decide to do something for yourself (something that is entirely, unapologetically about you, not your role, not your relationships, not your productivity) you send yourself a message. A message that says: I matter enough to show up for myself.

That message lands differently than any affirmation you've ever said in the mirror. Because it's not words. It's an action. It's evidence. And your nervous system believes evidence in a way it never quite believes words alone.

The women who walk out of their sessions different aren't different because of the photos. They're different because of who they decided to be when they booked. The session just gave that decision somewhere to live.

The booking isn't the point. The decision is. And that decision… I matter enough to show up for myself, changes how you move through everything after it.

What actually separates the women who do it from the ones who don't.

It's not confidence. It's not a certain body. It's not having everything figured out.

It's a willingness to be slightly uncomfortable and do something you want. It's the ability to hear all the reasons to wait and choose yourself anyway. It's treating your own desire to feel good, feel seen, feel fully alive as something legitimate. Not selfish. Not indulgent.

The women who don't book aren't less deserving. They're just still in the waiting room. Still collecting reasons. Still believing that the right version of themselves has to show up before they get to do the thing.

But here's what I know after watching hundreds of women walk through this: the right version of you doesn't show up before the decision. She shows up because of it babe!

What the session actually does

As much as a HATE when boudoir photographers say this… a boudoir session at Sheer isn't just a photo shoot. I need you to actually hear that, because it took a lot for me to write those words down without gagging on them. It's a few hours where you exist completely outside of every role you play and every expectation you carry and you get to be seen, fully and intentionally, as a woman who f*cking matters.

We do hair and makeup together. We talk. We move through looks that make you feel like different, powerful versions of yourself. And somewhere in the middle of it (usually when you're not expecting it) you stop performing and start just... being. Present. Real. Yours.

And then you see the photos. And you question why you waited so long.

Five signs you're ready to stop waiting

• You've been thinking about booking for more than six months and keep finding reasons not to

• You look at other women's session photos and feel something that's equal parts inspiration and slight jealousy

• You're tired of being the person who does everything for everyone and nothing for herself

• You have a birthday, milestone, or season coming up that feels like it means something

• Something in you read this and thought that's me… I need this!

That last one. That's the one. If something in you recognized yourself in any of this, that's not a coincidence. That's the decision knocking.

You don't have to be ready. You just have to be done waiting.

The right version of you doesn't show up before the decision. She shows up because of it. The investment is smaller than another year of waiting.

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Eat the damn cake!!!

A frequently asked question we get is, “what do I need to do to get ready for my #SheerExperience?” So we put together a few of our favorite tips, and we hope this helps whether it’s a session with Sheer, or another boudoir photographer.

1. Be Confident - Nerves are part of your experience, and are completely normal to have. But it’s time to love yourself more and finally be confident in who you are. We promise to work with you every step during your #SheerExperience. Our goal is for you to feel like a completely new woman after your session.

2. Wear lose clothing to the studio - The last thing you want are any unwanted lines that your clothing may leave, or trying to take off a tight shirt after you’ve had hair and makeup done. We recommend you arrive in sweatpants, a loose shirt, and braless.

3. Skip the tanning bed and spray tan - If you normally tan stick to your routine. If you don’t though, skip that temptation to start. Skin that’s not used to the tanning bed may appear blotchy after a visit or two due to uneven tanning. The last thing we want you to worry about is your skin.

4. Bring lots of outfits choices - I mean, who doesn’t like to shop, I know I do. Bring at least one more outfit than your session allows. Bring at least that totally fits your style, and something outside of your comfort zone. After all, this is something that’s probably out of your comfort zone to begin with, so embrace it and have fun.

5. Get your body ready - If you shave then shave, and f you wax then wax. The last thing you want to do is try something new and have it irritate your skin. Paint those finger and toenails, but avoid really bright colors. French tips and neutral solid color gel photographs best. Even clean nails are better than chippy nail polish

6. Start stretching - A common theme I hear from clients the next day is “you were so right, I can’t believe my muscles are so sore”. As little as 5-10 minutes a day can make a huge difference, and your body will thank you for it.

7. Eat smart and drink lots of water - Drinking lots of water and eating right will help give you a healthy glow and make you feel so much better. Be sure to eat breakfast the morning of your session. Eggs, toast, fruit, juices are all perfect choices. AVOID THOSE FASTFOOD DRIVE THROUGHS. With that being said, if you’re at a birthday party and there’s cake, EAT THE DAMN CAKE. It’s cake after all and who doesn’t love it.

Every mom deserves some ME time!

Miss R was the winner of our Mother's Day Momination!!! As a Mother's Day giveaway, Sheer Photography offered one LUCKY MOM a chance to win the full Sheer Experience. The Sheer Experience isn't just a one day kind of thing...about a month before your session we like to meet with you to talk about outfit ideas, look through Pinterest to see what type of images you are drawn to, answer questions and just talk about who you are and what you want to become during your shoot. We understand this isn't something you do everyday...it's okay to be nervous and ask questions. We are here to help you through the WHOLE process.

Finally, it's shoot day...nerves are high, excitement is bubbling, you enjoy being pampered by our hair and makeup team, we go through your outfits together and finalize a plan. You change into your first outfit and we get started!!! Hopefully you took some Advil before you came, cuz we are gonna make your back hurt. "Pop that booty out!!!" This is your time to get outta the house, feel sexy and not have a care in the world (except for being nervous as all hell).

A few weeks after your shoot, we invite you back to the studio for your Premier Ordering Appointment!! This is the moment you have been waiting for!!! So many women are more nervous to see their pictures than they were to take them. Most women can't believe the pictures are them. It's so great to see yourself the way everyone else sees you! 

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Like most women, Miss R works full time and never takes any time to do things for herself. This was her chance to let go and be sexy! 

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This is what she had to say about her Sheer Experience..."Having a boudoir session with Jen and Brian was one of the best experiences I've had! I have always loved boudoir photography but never thought I would do it.

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Being a mother, wife, and working full time as a nurse I don't make enough time for myself. My Sheer session was the perfect opportunity for some "me" time! I was nervous but as soon as I had my consultation and we discussed what to expect, what to wear, photo ideas, and all of my questions were answered, I couldn't wait for my session!

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The girls that did my hair and makeup were very sweet and did an excellent job, and during my session Jen and Brian made me feel completely comfortable and beautiful. They coached me on what to do, and I had so much fun the entire time! My photos were ready quickly and I LOVED every single image! 

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Jen and Brian know what they're doing and do an amazing job at it! It's something I would absolutely love to do again, maybe even a couples session with my hubby! I highly recommend Sheer Photography!"

Hair by Bianca Heasley. Makeup by Jodi Ciminero. 

We loved having Miss R in the studio and showing her how beautiful she is!!! We hope to see you back for a couples session soon!!!  

Ready for some YOU time?!?! Fill out the contact form below or give us an call at 330.646.1554

#BodyLove 1.0

About 6 months ago, I was not feeling good about myself. I was heavier than I've ever been, I was stressed from trying to do it ALL, but I felt like I was failing at everything...failing as a wife, mother, friend, business owner...nothing seemed to be where I wanted it to be. And if you know me, then you know that I am a HUGE control freak. So, when nothing was going the way I wanted it to I put all the blame on myself and bottled it up. One thing I'm really good at is keeping all my emotions bottled inside until it explodes and Brian is always the one who has to deal with the "brunt of Jen". Sorry about that Mr. Dirksen ;) but he is always there to keep me together and put a smile on my face.

3 months of this and I had to do something. I contacted my friend, Tiffany, who sells AdvoCare. I needed a change for myself, for Brian, for Keira (our daughter). I wasn't happy with my body and I felt like changing that would help everything else come together. And guess what?!?! It did...a little! It is amazing how one little change can help your whole life. Brian and I participated in the 24 day challenge and started eating better. We both lost a little weight, have so much energy, continue to try eating healthier and I have gained this whole new outlook on life. Not only do I see the beauty in myself more and more each day, but I also see the beauty in others so much more. It is so sad that we feel ashamed of our bodies...we need to embrace our bodies and compliment other women. Working with women has made me realize that no matter how beautiful everyone else thinks someone is, all they see when they look into the mirror are their own flaws. When did we start focusing so much on the bad rather than all the good in ourselves? When did it become wrong to say "I love my thighs", "I am proud that my stomach has stretched and shrank after having a baby", "I love my ass!"? I know if I tell someone else what I like about my body I start to feel vain and conceited. Brian takes FREAKING GORGEOUS pictures of me, but do I feel sexy everyday...no way! I still struggle with my body just like a lot of women do. But, I do feel pretty damn good though when I look at my boudoir pictures and see how fucking hot and sexy I can be.

Anyways, the point of hosting #BodyLove was to show women that no matter their age, shape or size, they should embrace their bodies and love where they are at this moment in their life. This wasn't about being sexy, it was a day about loving yourself and the journey your body has been through. 

These 9 women laughed with us, had fun with us, let their guard down for us and shared their stories with us. Thank you to all of these gorgeous ladies for taking part in #BodyLove!

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A few of the ladies wanted to share their stories with you...

Miss T ~ I had such a good time and it definitely made me realize some things about myself. "Sexy" is definitely different for everyone. I am not comfortable with the "normal" idea of sexy. And that's fine. What works for me is confident, silly, tough. What I find most sexy about me is my tattoos. I have always looked at my tattoos as a way to cope with my body issues and until I get the tone/strong/ft body I'm working for, I'm gonna rock my tattooed mommy body!!! I'm coming to accept that even though I'm not happy with how it looks it also in a way shows strength because I made two beautiful boys in this body!

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Miss C ~ I'm ashamed of my body, my stomach looks like a road map. Between surgeries and being pregnant it's been through hell. I never had one stretch mark till I got pregnant, not one!!! My arms and legs are gross and I may be the only fat woman in this world with small boobs!! In the last few months I've learned that I shouldn't care what others think. I'm not the normal woman, but I'm my own kind of beautiful. I get up everyday and now look at the mirror and try to see what others may see. I'm proud of myself for doing the BodyLove project!! I may have not have bared it all, but I bared more than I ever thought I could!!!

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Miss M ~ I'm a stay at home mom and wife. My husband and I have 4 beautiful children together. 3 here on earth and our first born in heaven. Our angel would have been 4 this past May. Our second turned 3 in March and our twins turned a year in January. Thank you for letting me be involved in #bodylove with you guys. I really enjoyed myself and I can't want to come back again.

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Miss A ~ I have had body image issues since I can remember. I lost a ton of weight prior to getting married and was finally happy in my own skin and felt great. Following my wedding, I got pregnant and I loved every minute of being pregnant. I wasn't worried about the weight gain because I knew I was creating another human and the weight would melt off as I breast fed my son.  Well, I breast fed my son for 14 months and didn't lose a pound! I was once again miserable with the way my body looked. Until one day, I was doing my hair at my bathroom mirror in my bra and panties. I looked up and for the first time in a long time actually saw myself in the mirror! After looking for a while and criticizing my body in my head I made myself STOP!! Since that day I have been working hard to find things I love about my body. I wanted to participate in the #BodyLove project because I knew it would help me in my journey to love my body.  I did it in hopes that by loving myself, I can teach my children to love themselves! Thank you Brian+Jen for all that you do to help build woman up! 

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Miss J ~ #BodyLove is accepting the skin you’re in. It's easy to say and hard to actually accept. To me, my body has been through war and back. The everlasting war in every woman’s brain from the time of puberty. Looking back at all the pictures from High School I beg my body to go back to that size, yet when I was in High School that body wasn’t good enough. BodyLove makes me appreciate the body I have RIGHT this moment. This body has given birth two times, been through a surgery or two, and ate a crap load of chocolate and ice cream when I want it. As I grow I find myself actually appreciating what my body can do. I take the little steps instead of wishing for large leaps in making my body better. Sure, it might be chubby and I might have a few scars across my stomach but I am beautiful. How do I know that? My husband tells me every single day. Days like today when I get to appreciate my body for what it is and how it’s made help me get through the days where the magazines tell me I am not small enough. I am finally comfortable in the skin I am in.

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Be on the look out for #BodyLove 2.0 Coming this Fall!!!

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Ready to see yourself how everyone else sees you?!?!