Boudoir Session??? Not for me...or is it!!!

My personal voyage has recently taken me through weight loss surgery.  A personal decision to get healthy and I have come a long way yet I still have a long way to go.  I am at a crossroads in my journey, I am proud of how far I have come yet I am struggling with low self-worth, unhappiness and depression. 

So my bestie suggests a boudoir photo shoot.  A friend of a friend did it, she loved it.  I couldn’t do that, could I?  It may sound fun but who would want to see me?  All of me, half naked no less!! I’m not at my goal weight and far from it with all the stress and emotions I am feeling.  I’m not attractive and would never use the word pretty to describe myself.  I have no business even thinking of doing something like boudoir photos. Yikes!

Then more thoughts started.  Well why couldn’t I do that?  My husband tells me every day how beautiful I am.  Even if I don’t think so, he would certainly be shocked to get photos like that for our anniversary.  I did say I wanted to start doing things outside of my comfort zone.  This certainly counts towards that for sure.  Who cares if you don’t think you are where you should be.  If you wait, you’ll just find more reasons to not do it.  You CAN do it, you WILL do it.  You know you want too.  Truthfully, I did want too so why not?!  I did it.  I booked my session with Sheer!  

Once I was in, I was all in.  I never looked back, even when I felt my worst and most depressed, I was still excited for the day to come.  Getting pampered with full makeup and hair was incredible.  I’m not one for putting on more than a bit of eyeliner and mascara but one look in the mirror and I didn’t even recognize myself.  Who was that pretty girl staring back at me?! Wow! 

I was nervous as we started but quickly fell into a comfortable zone that Brian and Jennifer helped create.  The first photo they showed me on the camera display almost made me cry.  Who is that? That’s certainly not me!  I look pretty!  I look more than that, I look gorgeous!  How can that be me in those pictures?! I’m not the pretty girl, I’m the fun one!  

Getting to see all my pictures at my personal reveal session was more than amazing.  I saw myself showing skin and places I would never want anyone to see and it made me realize, I’m beautiful.  I saw myself in a whole new light and it couldn’t have come at a better time for me.  I still struggle with self-esteem every single day, but the difference is, I have seen the beauty and more importantly I have felt it.  Aside from the expected reaction from my husband he also said to me, “I’m glad you finally got to see yourself as I see you every day.”  Along with the whole experience those words helped me understand and realize I AM BEAUTIFUL.  I AM GORGEOUS and I AM ENOUGH. Makeup or not.  My Sheer Experience really ended up being as much for me as it was an anniversary surprise for him. 

Eat the cake, buy the shoes, book your Sheer Experience. Let it make you aware that you ARE AMAZING and you ARE BEAUTIFUL.  You ARE a #SheerBeauty

~ Miss K

Hair and Makeup by Bianca Heasley.